Saturday, February 28, 2009 ; 4:23 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Too many things happened within this short span of 3 days. I still can't define my feeling for A... Got a tattoo at FEP. Tks to Melvin my tattoo artist. i think its freaking nice. Jme accompanied me there and she witness my incoherrant side. The strong pris Jus fell. Too many feelings. complicated. To : A... i dun know i dun know if i should wait or...Friday night at REBEL again. Even the bouncers know me alr. Have been there 3 weeks in a row. Hopping for a fourth. lolx. Any ways managed to know a taiwanese guy there. Shocked that someone actually tapped on my shoulders and commented that i had a nice tatt. Talked and he treated me to drinks... Any ways clubbing with gfs were great. Knowing CALVIN LING was great. But it will never be as great as the time i can spend with you A...
I miss you, I miss you, I miss you.
I'm a sucker for love.
I'm having a hard time taking a picture of my tattoo
Fell asleep while being Inked
Unglam pics of JME. I will miss you...
Friday REBEL trip with gfs
XiXiang jus cut her hai.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009 ; 12:52 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
whee I'm Happy bcause I know I'm gonna Flunk Food chem A. LOLTo: A... you know you are making it so difficult. Lets jus hang out and let loose
I'm going Clubbing again on Friday. Wit GFs maybe the person I really wanna see might come.
I'm screwed up. Can anyone tell me If i shld ink myself today ?
Gawd I'm just ranting nonsenscially
Monday, February 23, 2009 ; 1:06 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
I'm drinking every weekend. This is so so so unlike me. And all because of ? I dun know either. Had a long long chat with A... ytd night. Feeling weird. He told me we are both afraid to love. He told me he liked me. He told me we are both complicated people thats y..... Should I feel happy cos I have all the freedom in the world now? Or should i feel sad that I couldn love the one that i wanted to. Confusion. And i hate this kinda feelingWhy is loving so difficult? Isn't it supposed to be easy and beautiful? He told me that the time we spent tgt were magical and memorable. And i shld just keep it as a memory? What does it fucking mean? Omg I'm so screwed.
Drinking session again on Friday. Wheets. JME I can't wait to see you LTR. So many stuffs to catch up. I'm sure you gonna kill me.
Gotta Mug alr. Paper is later at 5pm
Sunday, February 22, 2009 ; 8:25 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
I'm Feeling shitty I need to drink drink drink all my worries away. WEE!!! To that special someone, I'm gonna forget bout you alr. GAVE UP!!I've decided that although I can't stop thinking bout u I'm prepared to wait I guess......
Ter N Me
Yao Wen my fatty bom bom
Cissy N Me
Ter N Me again Saturday, February 21, 2009 ; 1:06 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
Nothing much to update. Jus came home from a heart to heart talk with Besti Henry. He's always there for me no matter how busy he is. Even though we stay so far from each other, he will always be ther to give me his shoulders to cry on. I cried.I dun even know why I teared. Prolly it ain't infatuation any more. I'm stepping on dangerous ground.
So tired now. Didn't slp for 2 days. Why am i so dumb??? Slap me someone wake me up from this dream I'm having with A... .
Friday, February 20, 2009 ; 8:29 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
I'm so so so sad now. I dun know should i cont to wallow in this kind of feeling. I just wanna drink myself silly now. Can someone just ask me out to drink? ; 1:22 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
I'm so hurt now. A... didnt pick up my calls from last night till now. I dun know if i should be worried. I'm just so tired of waiting hoping to see his name flash across my hp screen. I guess its just over. I wanna club i wanna dance thorugh the night. I wanna drink till I'm dead drunk. I wanna even forget I almost fell in love. I wanna forget the whole bloody episode that we shared that special moment. Cos he is just like every other guy. My speculations were correct. I just hate it when smth like that happens when I'm trying to open my heart to love someone else. Fuck it. Life is just like that.I wanna cry. I wanna tear till all the hurt from me is gone. I just miss him alot. Fuck
Thursday, February 19, 2009 ; 10:35 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Back from towning. Did my hair. Sis did hair extensions again. Recently haven been sleeping well again. I'm getting isomia and its cause i am thinking too much again. Why am i always getting myself in such situations? I shouldn't have gone clubbing then I won have know A... and I won be experiencing sleepless nights now. Shucks i hate the feeling. Can I just drop dead now?
PFFTS I'm so not myself.
Gah I'm missing my fireman
See thats how vexed I am now
; 1:32 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
I'm so freaking hungry now. The only meal for the day was a bit of rice at 11am. Am i dumb to give up my meals so i can acc you? I dun know...Can I just say i wanna give up on guys alr. I just gotta say I won be here waiting for you to muster up your courage or to even feel better. I have a choice and that choice is not for you to make but for me. Sensless worrying and sleepless night is taking the toll on me and I don wanna be like that any more.
I need my gfs. JME where are you??? I just need a comforting shoulder to lean on and to cry my worries away. Seriously Fucked up. Can i turn lesbian, cos I'm really sick of guys. Seriously!!!
Btw A came over to my place. Chilled awhile and I accompany him to JW for his bike practical. I'm so screwed up. Someone slap me and wake me up.
This pic looks so obscence
I feel naked without my eyeliner and blusher
He's just trying to act shy
He got super small eyes...
A... Jus texted me.. wheets happy but...
Anyways i gonna gym tmr. Gfs pls plan something. I wanna get drunk whatever.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009 ; 1:12 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
I jus woke up to a bad dream. Sets me thinking about him. Do we really know each other well? What are your expectations of me even though we are not dating. I'm really tired of missing A... the feeling is like waiting for rain to drop in the drought. Almost impossible.To A... : I don know if you are ever gonna read this but all i can tell you is my mind is clouded with thoughts of you. Although we both know that we are afraid to love, i'm sure things will turn out fine.
Bestie is coming over for MJ session. WEE!!! Can't wait to win all their money haha. I gotta go wash up and prepare alr whoots.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009 ; 6:59 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Hi peeps. Back from Gyming and Swimming. Finally some me time. Begining to get used of the idea of doing things alone esp when I'm single and lonely now. Anyways Gym was great it's been so long since I did a real work out not including going to clubs and working out on the dance floor. Did 3 hours of gymming and swimming. Gonna tone up thoes muscles soon. Planning to make it a routine.Trying to get Lawerence's no. but it seems like he is trying to Mia. Btw Lawerence is my pilot boy haha. I'm missing Rebel when i jus went on friday. What's wrong with me. Loving the time warp whereby everything just stops and time just flies by without thinking of anything but dancing to the music and drowning down liquor. Prolly i got to much troubles that cannot be spoken. I can't wait to meet up with my girls. JME and CASS.
Finally i solved the rubick's cube. TKS to bestie for teaching me although u know i got STM and tend to forget things easily.
BUT to A... I still cannot forget the time we spent tgt. It seems like a dream but i so want it to turn into reality.
; 4:11 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
Time now is 4.09 am I'm wondering to myself why am i still awake at this kinda horrendous timing. The only answer I could find is cos I miss him. I know its stupid that I'm waiting till 6am so that i could wish him good morning. I know that its dumb to wait till 6am so that i could hear his voice. And i also know that its dumb if I'm not really sure he will appreciate it. But all i could say is I'm madly infatuated with him and I dun know why. My eyes will be getting smaller soon with all these late nights ; 12:36 AM♥
Because of you ; again.
Hi peeps. Jus got bac from a movie: Valkyrie. Great show. Acting may be a little mudane and talking may be a little too much. But the storyline makes up for it all. Worth catching it.
Victor looks so spastic
Victor and I went to eat pizza hut bfore that. Gosh it has been so long since i saw him..... In any case u are wondering who is victor, he's my child hood friend. 7 years of friend ship and still going strong.
Went for a smoke and chilled after that. I'm missing A alot but... yeah there's a fire at bukit batok and he have to adhere to his duties.
Let the pics do the talking:
Victor looks so spasticAnd thats my unfinished Warm chocolate cake with ice cream
Monday, February 16, 2009 ; 3:07 PM♥
Because of you ; again.
Alex is acting gay wearing my top.
Finally got my blog up once again.
Friday 13th Feb
Went out with sis. She did shopping again. I'm so so Jealous. Well I gotta admit she got a mind for business. Anyways support her: http://www.trashycans.blogspot.com/
Reached home ard 10pm and pepared to head off to rebel. WEEE!!!!. Got to know some peeps there: Johnathan (who put up with my nonsense when i was drunk), Pilot Boy(the sweet guy who carried my bag all ard), 3 china peeps whom i don really like (yikes), sky (who paid for my entrance fee), A sweet boy who bought me the drink And ALEX who accompanied me throughout the whole morning talking nonsense with me.
I drank alot, literally alot. Did stupid stuffs. And to one of the china peeps, i'm still freaking pissed u left a very bad impression. Stuffs happened. Played 5-10 with Alex and he cheated. No wonder i always lose.
Danced till the club closed and went to Mac at liang court for Breakfast. Ordered a meal but i only ate 1/4. Tsk was feeling so dehydrated. The rest cabbed home while Alex stayed with me. So sweet of him. Anyways, we were feeling bored and thus 5-10 again . This time i was the one winning haha. whoots. Went to Fort Canning after that and watched the sunrise. We chatted and I realised smth.I wanted to bathe and thus we went to ........
Took a train home after that and slept away the whole of V'day. First time spending such a lousy V'day but too bad i'm single. Jus to sum it off... I'm infatuated with someone...
